There was a truck in front of me, and as I have a certain impression of trucks, I 'thought' I should pass it. If I don’t, then I won’t be able to once on the highway—nor for a while.
I noticed the truck picking up momentum to the point where I could and should have remained behind it.
I hesitated, but my previous train of thoughts were louder.
I sped up and eventually passed the truck, and there I remained.
At this point, I noticed the truck was in a hurry, and I thought to myself that he must’ve just unloaded everything.
He was so close behind me that it was distressing— no matter how I went a little faster than the speed limit.
Because I couldn’t let him pass, something was seriously considered, like pulling over to the side of the road, but I could not— there was no space for it.
Instead, I felt guilty, which made me speed up some more. Now, uncomfortable and a bit stressed, I noticed I was holding my breath and kept looking back at the truck, wondering what the truck driver might be thinking.
I even recalled witnessing an accident of a few cars passing by, driving all too close behind the other.
Was I feeling his irritancy?
Deep in thought, and before reaching home, I realized the significant spiritual meaning this carried for me. It is something huge, a big part of my present, and it’s something I must look into right away.
Once home, an incident immediately ensued. After pissing my wife off and hurting her, I understood what was going on.
Life, everything, is constantly in movement, constantly flowing—the Dao, if you will…
and I was not honoring my rhythm.
I took the time to conserve my resources and guides to help me figure out the core issue and how to transcend it.
The conclusion I have reached is that when you’re not honoring your rhythm, it causes a spiritual energy leak.
I have known and complained for some time that I do not have the time to keep up with certain things, or everything honestly.
But today’s two incidents have given me the remaining perspectives needed for me to clearly see and understand why I am being drained, and consequently how to protect my spiritual energy.
I am a bit wary of putting this newfound truth into practice, because I’m so aware of how fast energies move and tend to drag me into a flow un-akin to mine.
I’m grateful to all the forces helping me and heeding my plea for aid 🙏🏽